Life, It Can Turn You Inside Out!

First off, I have a strong belief if you show your true colors, people will both respect you and possibly understand you more. I am not looking for sympathy, because I have multiple reasons to be thankful, but, as we know it, life can have a dark side that we often hide from the outside world.

For this past week, no, not a week, for the past MONTHS, my life has been hectic. To the point of almost exhaustion! I have been burning the candle at both ends and my wick of my candle is burning quickly. In order to remain somewhat sane, I decided to start making and selling my cheesecakes. As I shared earlier, one of my customers at work came in frazzled sharing that he was the chosen one to come up with a dessert for his family gathering and, I mentioned I can make him one of my cheesecakes. His eyes lit up, he said he loves cheesecake! That one cheesecake turned into multiple orders and that was when I thought, "I'm on to something here."

Yet, life can turn on a dime, it can throw a wrench into your wheel of life when you least expect it and, it can challenge you to points of wonder. I have two loving parents. My dad has reached a milestone in his age of 96-years old. My mom, she is turning 94-years old. When we are children growing up, we see our parents as strong able people that are our own safety net. And, somehow, that page flips and suddenly, the child is the safety net to his or her parents.

This is when the HECTIC begins - My strong and able father who chased away my dates when I was young, he guided me through life when I was young, who climbed three stairs at a time to kick my ass in when I was obnoxious and rude to put me back down to earth, has now become an incapable man of doing anything for himself. He needs help getting dressed, he needs help putting his socks on, going to the doctors, picking up his meds, or something simple of putting on his jacket because 99% of his body is ridiculed with arthritis and his once six-foot five body is now five foot eleven.

I have learned right before one is to expire out of life, there is a gassy smell that is most unfavorable begins to excrete out of the body and my father has just that. Now, my mom has now been joined with dementia. Dementia has taken up time and space and now, watching one of the strongest females of my life, one who is who has the mental capacity of a brick shit house, who has taken money and turned it into millions of dollars, who is sharp as a tack, now, she is mentally challenged and 95% hearing loss.

Every weekend or, almost every weekend, I am driving almost two hours to their home, going to the grocery store for them, hitting up Costco, helping around the house and in the meantime, trying to run a business, answer phone calls, answering messenger questions, posting on Facebook, building my website, ordering off of Amazon left and right, helping my mom with her laundry, washing their bed sheets, making the bed, checking their mail, I mean the lists goes on and on. On top of that, I am working three days a week at my local gas station as a cashier where oddly enough, I have gained 99% of my customers!

All of my customers tell me not to give up, to fight the fight, things will happen the way life intended it to be. Now, I am getting orders, and I am so thankful for that. I find my happy place in my kitchen baking and creating cheesecakes, making samples and passing them out when I have a moment to breathe in hopes of landing at least one of my local privately owned restaurants or coffee shops.

I love being in my kitchen, my phone is silent, the TV is off, and the house is dead silent, and my 26-year-old daughter who still lives with me knows don't talk to me when I am in the kitchen. Leave me alone, let me be, this is my time. I have told my daughter, "Unless you are bleeding out of every orifice in your body, if you have been shot, if your legs break, if none of that occurred, leave me alone."

So, yes, my life is hectic, but right now in this moment, I wouldn't change a thing. I pray that the cheesecake orders keep coming, I will enjoy every life's moment with my parents, I will cherish the hard work and devotion they have taught me. Just remember....

NEVER GIVE UP, THAT IS JUST TOO EASY. FIGHT THE FIGHT EVERYDAY!